January 3, 2010
Dear Relief Society Sisters,
I need to begin this letter with a confession. After a little under two decades in Relief Society, I had never really gained a testimony or thorough understanding of what Relief Society is all about. I had always heard the Relief Society motto, ‘Charity never faileth,’ but being head-strong, independent, and often prideful, I never understood how that applied to me. I even served as Relief Society president in college and still missed the big picture. I’ve always missed the forest for the trees—until I met you wonderful sisters.
I came into this ward as a shy and awkward newlywed, and you patiently and sweetly helped me along (even when I acted like I didn’t need any help). As I have interacted with you over the past six years, I have learned the true meaning of ‘charity never faileth’. Let me give three specific examples, out of many, of how you have blessed my life and taught me charity.
When I first got married, I moved into the house that my husband already owned. I loved my new home-except for the oven. The oven was ancient (possibly the first one ever made!) and would always leave half of the meal raw while burning the other half. As a new bride wanting to impress my husband with my cooking skills, it was highly frustrating! But it would have to do until we could save up to buy a new one. Then one Sunday, a dear sister came up to me after church and asked, “How’s your oven?” I was surprised by her out-of-the-blue question, but answered truthfully, “awful!” She then explained that she had an extra oven and had been praying about whom to give it to, and my name kept coming to mind. A week later I was cooking dinner in my brand-new oven and no longer had any excuses for burning the meal! Because of this humble sister and her generous gift, I learned that the Lord is mindful of each of us and that He does answer prayers. This sister will never know how much she blessed my life and how grateful I am to her!
The next example was also when I was relatively new to the ward. I didn’t know very many people and was struggling with feelings of loneliness, inadequacy, and low self-esteem. I was starting to feel like now that I was married, I didn’t have any friends outside of my home and wondered why anyone would really want to be my friend anyway. It may not seem like it, but I can be extremely shy and going out of my comfort zone to meet new people can be really difficult for me. Well, one Saturday, I pushed myself to go to a stake Relief Society program and luncheon by myself. The program was wonderful, and I really felt the Spirit. But as we filed into the cultural hall for lunch, I felt those same anxieties from grade school: Whom will I sit by? What should I do? Where should I go? I sat at a far table and decided to save some seats for a few people I had recognized from the ward. But they came in and sat down without us seeing each other. Since I was sitting near the kitchen, I was the first to be served. I found myself in an awkward situation: Do I stay at this table and eat alone? Do I take my plate and sit by others even though they haven’t been served? Do I leave the food to be wasted and move to another table? And if so, where do I move? All the tables were looking full. It may sound like a silly and trivial situation now, but I remember sitting at that table with Satan nudging me and saying, “See! You have no friends! You’re unimportant. You’re a nothing!” Just as I was about to get up and leave altogether, three sisters from the ward came and sat down at my table. They introduced themselves and probably wondered about their choice of seating, because immediately I began to cry. Eventually, I pulled myself together, and we had a lovely time getting to know each other. From these kind sisters, I learned that I am loved by my Heavenly Father and that I am special and important to Him. These sisters will never know the difference their simple act has made in my life. They probably don’t even remember it! But I do!
The last example is not necessarily a specific experience but an accumulation of experiences. As most of you know, my husband and I have had many struggles to have a baby. It took us five years to get our miracle. During those five years, there have been many words of encouragement and hugs just when I needed them. Sometimes it was a lesson or talk that touched my heart and comforted me. Sometimes a visiting teacher was there with a patient, listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Sometimes a sister would pull me aside and say, “I’ve been there. Hang in there!” And sometimes, on those really hard days, I would find myself enveloped in the arms of some in-tune, loving sister. Thank you for the love, support, and strength you gave to me during those times!
We have also been greatly touched and amazed by the kindness and generosity shown to us as we’ve welcomed our little boy into the world. From extraordinary visiting teachers who went the extra mile to throw me a baby shower to all the gifts, cards, treats, and congratulations, your goodness has overwhelmingly filled our hearts and added to this new joy in our lives. Thank you so much! My baby is so lucky and blessed to come into a ward full of loving grandmas and aunts for him. You truly are my sisters and family to me!
To conclude this lengthy epistle, I just want to thank you for all that you’ve done for me and continue to do for me. Thank you for your service, for your examples, and for your testimonies. Thank for teaching me what Relief Society is all about and that charity never faileth. You are all truly angels of the Lord!